Yeah that's what they say when they tell you something of extreme change @ work right? Just go on about your business as usual and as soon as we know the changes, we will let you know. I wish it were that easy. My day to day things haven't changed, but in the back of my mind, things are moving. Just the thought of a big -wig, multinational, global CFO coming to our office on Wednesday made me go out and buy new pants so I could look nice when he came by. What kind of thinking is this? Not that I dress like a slob when I go to work, but its usually a casual thing with the possibility of shorts on a warm day. No no, I wouldn't want to look like that when Mr. Big Shot came in. Why do I do this??? Image is a big thing when you move to a more corporate environment, so I guess that's why I do it.
Moving on, what does this mean for me?? Am I going to be with the company when all the papers are signed and filed? Will I be put out on the street looking for a job once again after losing my other job less than 2 years ago? What do I do?? Well my mind has a problem with speculation sometimes. I have run through the scenario soo many times in the last 4 days I'm almost dizzy from it. And I think that I have finally come to a conclusion. God has the final say on any decision that goes on in my life. I trusted him after the hurt and heartache I had experienced from Nov 05 to Feb 06, why can't I trust Him now. Does he want me to leave this job and go be in the mission field? Does he want me to stay with the company and grow with them? Only He knows, so I'll leave it up to Him. He is The Ruler of this world and my Savior. I think I can trust Him with this.
On a lighter note........
Small group was tonight, and it was good. Had a few new faces show up and the group finally has more than 2 guys in it. I was starting to worry about the future of the male leadership. We split up for prayer, and I think it was a good move. I haven't heard the opinions of the girls, but I think it's a good move. Not all the time, but once in a while wouldn't hurt. Then we discussed our chapter of the night "Did Christ rise form the dead?" We had some really good discussions on the chapter and I was pleased on how things went.
I never had dinner so I filled up on 2 bowls of Bonnie's "Naner Puddin'" and was still hungry. A quick (not really) stop @ Wendy's and my hunger was satiated for the time being. Now its of to dreamland. Hopefully 1 Venti Caffe Vanilla Frappucino and 1 Tall Extra Bold Blend coffee from Starbucks won't keep me up all night. If it does, I might come back and post my random thoughts as I try to sleep.
O-yasumi nasai
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Dang, Jon... didn't know you were stressing about work and what may come of today, but it's awesome to see your faith through it. He has provided for you in the past, and He will continue to do so. Christ raised from the dead, so I think that trumps your job situation. ;)
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